why?

i'm not back~ but well maybe i am~
i'm not sure if i will come back to write again
but i guess for now i will
if u happen to see this post~
u must have been longing to know more abt me~
i'm here just becoz i'm currently lost again
maybe becoz of the exam stress
i'm always not very gd at handling stress
i duno if one day some day i will really fall ill
not physically but mentally
but if i do~ will u come visit me?

not making sense
confuse

再見 . 礎寧

R.I.P 黎礎寧

felt really sad and disappointed that she has committed suicide~~ she is my favourite contestant from the 3rd season... i love how she sang this song... if only we could hear it again... may she rest in peace :'(

gd bye msn... gd bye blog

i've always been thinking abt the pros n cons of msn...
n now... i've finally voted for the cons side...
i realised that msn is realli a bad bad means of communication...
u don't actually know their expression when they wrote those words...
n its easy to create misunderstandings...
so i'm not going to msn so often anymore...
except if i nd to go on a video call with my parents
or sth special we gotta discuss but don't wanna waste hp credit...

i don't care if u can't reach me on the phone...
just leave me an sms n i shall see it in 24 hrs time..

and i feel that blogging is actually not a safe place anymore...
if u want to know how i'm doing... just email me or call me to see if i'm still alive... (if u realli care)
thats all i want to say...
good bye msn...
good bye blog...



disappointed

10 Things to Never Eat From Vending Machines

i don't really agree with the article below coz drinks can nv cure my desire to pick up snacks... but still... may consider taking a look at the article...

10 Things to Never Eat From Vending Machines

DON'Ts!
Save your pennies (and LOTS of calories!)...



Nacho Cheesier! Doritos
(1 serving = 140 calories, 8g fat, 17g carbs, 1g fiber)
Cheetos
(1 serving = 160 calories, 10g fat, 15g carbs, <1g>
Chili Cheese Fritos
(1 serving = 160 calories, 10g fat, 15g carbs, 1g fiber)
Sun Chips
(1 serving = 140 calories, 6g fat, 18g carbs, 2g fiber)
Twinkies
(1 cake = 150 calories, 4.5g fat, 27g carbs, 0 fiber)
Mrs. Freshley's Jumbo Honey Bun
(1 package = about 590 calories, 29g fat, 76g carbs, 2g fiber)
Snickers
(1 bar = 280 calories, 14g fat, 35g carbs, 1g fiber)
Twix
(1 package = 280 calories, 14g fat, 37g carbs, 1g fiber)
Frosted Brown Sugar Cinnamon Pop-Tarts
(1 Pop-Tart = 210 calories, 7g fat, 34g carbs, <1g>
Famous Amos Chocolate Chip Cookies
(4 cookies = 150 calories, 7g fat, 20g carbs, <1g>

INSTEAD, BE ON THE LOOKOUT FOR...

- Cold Food Vending Machines! These neato refrigerated units feature excellent options, like fat-free yogurt. Our personal favorite is Yoplait Light a wacky take on the new Yoplait Light cake flavors!
- 100-Calorie Packs!
- Fully Loaded Cold Beverage Machines! Staying hydrated is KEY to avoiding mindless snacking. Most of these machines dispense bottled water, diet iced tea, and diet soda. If you're parched, those really are the best way to go. We don't trust those cappuccino machines and the creamy, sugar-packed stuff they churn out.

SOURCE: YAHOO.COM

wine

recently addicted to this bottle of dessert wine i've got a couple of days ago....
could have been better if the alcoholic percentage is abit higher...
but it may make me realli drunk if it is...

just couldn't stop taking a sip after another...

OH SHOOTS~~~
will drinking too much wine give me a belly?

2 years

it has been 2 years since i came to melbourne...
come to think abt it...
time realli flies...
i could still remember how unwillingly i drag myself to the singapore changi airport with my mum n bro...
how much i wanted to cry when i entered the gate leaving my beloved m5 crying outside...
2 yrs have passed...
what have i done?
what have i achieved...
some may say that i've changed... but who doesn't? if u behave like what u are 2 yrs ago... then u are a complete failure?
we've gotta improve and strive to do out best in every single thing we do...

i won't be surprise if someone come to me to tell me that i've changed...
coz thats just normal isn't it?
i'm continuously moulded by the society...
i'm just becoming part of the human society...
so what do u all expect me to be? expect me to do?

okies enough of crap...
a little drank...
blog tml...

问心无愧

if taking responsibility is ever a mistake then i will agree in taking the blame...
well there are just too many weird ppl in this world...
i may even be one of them...
i've nv thought that i'm perfect...
i do sometimes try to reflect upon myself...
i admit that i've done childish stuffs...
but i'm proud to say that i did not n will not do anything to deprive any other ppl from their rights or advantages...

i've heard enough... its obvious... don't u think so?
not from others... but with my own ears...
those words are devastating...
u may not realise it but it realli hurts...
i've kept it long enough in my heart... i've tried to wipe things away again n again...
so i just wanna say... if u think that what u r doing now is what u want... and what u like.... and if u feel happy abt it...
then be it...
i'm not going to hate u or talk bad abt u...
i'm not sure if there are any misunderstanding...
but i'll still pray for u... god bless...

i'm going to enjoy my holidays~
hope u guys have fun too~~~
gd bye hypocrites~~

mid-semester break

took this pic quite abt a month ago in melb...
cool isn't it... have been seeing rainbows a couple of times in melb already...
looks surreal but it issn't... its just beautiful~~

anyway... yohoooo~~~
i'm gonna have 2 wks of mid-semester break
sounds gd yea?
but actually there seems to be lotsa things to be done~~

have got quite a few assignments to hand in after the break
and before u realise....
the final exam will be coming real soon...
hopefully i can do better than last semester...
but its getting tougher as i proceed to the higher levels...

anyway... someone finally came to fix the range hood today....
(after 5 long months) have been chasing after the management of the property for quite some time....
hooray~~ it looks cool...
looks totally unmatch with my current place...
coz its so new n modern.... but my other equipments at home are kinda old...
like those old furnitures n stuff... hahaha...

happy mooncake festival

from white lotus seed
red bean paste
green tea flavour
ice-cream
mochi
and even
heart-shape MOONCAKES...

arghxxx they are just so tempting and looked realli delicious...
love hk mooncakes coz there r so many varieties to choose from
especially the mochi type and the ice-cream mooncakes....

really wanted to grab a few from chinatown in melb
even though i knew it will definately won't be as nice as those from hk
but still... i kinda crave for it coz i pretty like the traditional white lotus mooncake too

but after some thoughts...
was kinda thinking of the true meaning of mooncake festival...
its for families to sit together... look at the moon and enjoy the mooncake with tea...
its about coming together as a family.... reunion etc.
so i actually didn't get any mooncake from chinatown after church 2day...
was thinking... whats the meaning of eating the mooncake by myself?
rather meaningless....

flu virus

it has been the 5th day
that my mouth is taking over the job of breathing instead of my nose....

nose got realli rebellious...
it blocked up the passage way
which made me feel realli sick for the past few days...
n all becoz of this naughty nose...
i missed quite a number of lectures and tutorials this week...

my voice got rather sexy too...
its getting better but the recovery is realli slow
i also had a terrible time trying to sleep these days...
usually i'm able to sleep round the clock when i'm down with a flu...
but i guess this time the flu virus was rather hectic...
my nose got realli congested when i lie down on my bed...
n i am seriously v irritated by it...

really hope that i can fully recover soon
so that i can have a great mid-semester break a week later...
but all i know now is that my head feels realli stuffed up...
arghxxx... my nose is still block and so are my ears...
fed up!

1 year

有你真好~~

Relisation 4

SAT 30 Aug: once again strucked by ur words... stunned, loss for words... (Relisation 4: i may have the ability to control the way i think but not the ability to control how i feel...)

Understanding yourself

Sometimes, out of a sudden,
i will start to question myself
'' What is life all about? ''

At this very moment,
i interpret it as:
" Life is all about understanding yourself"

it doesn't matter...
if u disagree with me...
at different stages of ur life,
perceptions and interpretations differs
it changes as u encounter different situations, objects and challenges...
age and people around u are also part of the contributing factors...

i've been trying to recall the things i did for the past 1 month...
its like a cycle,
a routine...
ranging from breakfast, sch, lunch, sch, lib, dinner, internet, drama series and sleep...
for this.... i've been moaning...

but surprisingly,
this week seemed totally different...
its like a wake up call~~

as usual,
i attended sch, breakfast, school, lunch, dinner, drama series etc.

MON 25th: still staying in my wonderland searching for my way out~~~

TUES 26th: had a debate... did my work... but still... loss for words~
(Realisation 1: keeping things to myself due to my lack of confidence and not to let ppl feel mysterious)

Wed 27th: tried to push myself harder.... focus... but failed (just like many other times)

Thurs 28th: B&E lecture... angel wasn't there.... coz she didn't realli like the subject... my feelings for this subject was rather influenced by her telling me how boring this sub can be... but after today's lecture... i was awaken... i regret about how much i've missed in the previous weeks when i was daydreaming in class...
(Realisation 2: when u r lost... follow ur heart~~)

FRI 29th: catching up.... doing finance... seemed boring when i started... wanted to give up... but tried my best to endure... and i did it.... with pride...
(Realisation 3: the beginning may always seem difficult and unbearable but if u'r able to overcome it, the sweetness u obtain is actually100 times better)


Everyday is different even though i may seem to be doing the same things...
Life is a realisation~~

Chasing

lotsa catching up to do~~~
both in terms of sch work n friends...

i better start running now
else i'll be left even further behind~~~

sign off~

Where In The World is OSAMA BIN LADEN?

okies no offence....
just bursted out in laughters when i saw this on "COMING SOON"
was just browsing to see if there are any nice movies coming on screen soon....
can't believe they actually made a movie for mr Laden.....
just wonder how will the ratings be....
we shall see...

random entry

hopefully i'm able to bid farewell to failures and welcome successes~~~
go @lly!




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有事鍾無艷, 無事夏迎春！！！

Saving up!

Planning to make a visit to New Zealand~~~
can't take my eyes off such breath-taking sceneries....
awwwww~~~~
if onli singapore has such nice places...

plans: trip to the KIWI island after summer course (end feb 2009)
round about in australia (july 2009)
eg. Gold Coast
tasmania
perth
Queensland etc. etc.

probably will just stay in aus for the whole of my winter break nx yr...
so honestly not realli sure when i will be back to spore...
planning in progress....

hopefully my parents will allow me to do these =P
but for now i better save more $$ for these trips~