was kinda shocked when i heard abt the news of his death....
i mean.... he is still so young...
a sec schmate of mine...
although i have nv been in the same class as him...
but i do always see him hanging ard with those guys in my class...

alarming... it surely is...
commit suicide due to depression
and stress in sch....
i feel realli upset by his actions...
or maybe its because i don't know
wat actually he is going thru...
well i just hope...
he will rest in peace...

this leads me to recall another death in my sec sch days...
it happens to my choir junior
who has kinda a hole in his heart...
and due to his health prob.
his lips will turn slightly purple when he can't
get sufficient oxygen...
but the thing is... i guess... he loves to sing...

i can remember clearly how our instructor scolded him...
just one session b4 his death...
our instructor can get realli mean at times...
especially when we couldn't reach the standard she wants...
she will even pinpoint at individuals and insult us in
front of the whole choir...

that day....
our instructor said really mean things to him...
things like...
'' u shouldn't even come into choir if u can't sing''
those words realli hurts...
i do notice how sad he feels while he tries hard to
catch his breathe...

on the other hand... i feel realli bad for not doing
anything abt it... as i was president of the choir...
all i remembered was that i went out of the choir room
with him and tried to console him...
he tires hard to breathe and told me...
'' at least i tried...''

i feel so sorry for him...
for i took no actions to communication
with the instructor... i know i will surely get some
kinda mean comments in return so thats y i didn't
do anything abt it...

and just the following wk...
during our nx choir session... i come to know
that he passed away in the morning...
the whole choir was realli sad abt it...
and i'm sure ... the instructor feels realli bad
for what she had said to him the previous session...
after choir... all of us headed to his wake...
his mum was telling us that he was alrite
the nite b4 and even told her that he planned
to go for the choir practice the next day....

but who knows....
life is full of unexpectation.....
u nv know wat may happen next...
life is short... and sometimes when u miss out
somethings... someone... theres just no
turning back...
learn to treasure the people ard u...
u'll nv know when they will just disappear
from ur life....

那天我听了别人说了那番话之后...
很其怪...
总是很期待你能一直陪我聊天...
但你却很少在线上.. 你总是显得很忙...