i always wonder how ppl see me as....

well, i have always ppl telling me that i'm a mysterious person...
but when i ask them why... they just can't seem to provide a satisfying ans...

i guess... it feels nice to be described in this way...
in one way... i didn't realli feel secure telling others all abt me...
moreover, i always feel that ppl aren't interested either...
maybe in this entry, i should say somethings abt myself...

hmmmm... actually i don't realli know what kinda person
i realli am... (coz i think its for others to say and not for me to tell)

i often do find ppl ard me kinda insensitive...
or maybe i am the same towards them that y i have this feeling...
i just feel that 'they' always think that i am cheerful therefore i never cry...
cry (sad) not cry (happy)...
well i just have to say cheerful is not equal to happy all the time
in fact i guess i am those type who look happy all the time
but thats not the case when i am alone...
its obvious that i don't laugh to myself....

i am actually not as optimistic as i seem to be...
its just... i don't like to show it in front of others....
coz i always feel that no 1 will care anyway...

i am not as strong as i seem to be either...
at times, i do need a pat on my shoulder and someone
to tell me things like 'u can do it...'
(but most ppl will think that i am a tough ger... i nv nd such things)

and i hate it most when ppl think that i do not have a temper...
i won't realli throw my temper at 'them' just becuz i regard them as friends...
and pls don't take things for granted...
i seldom throw my temper in front of others but if i do...
its gonna be horrible... so never even attempt to test my patience!

one last thing abt me is...
something is bothering me these days...
but i don't think ppl ard me have realised...
i don't think it will help by sharing n
its realli hard to tell...
so u don't have to bother asking me...
i guess i will feel better after my wkends badminton...
(is this considered mysterious too?)


so after all this crap...
am i still v mysterious?